The last warm day of Fall came and went.
That girl. I tell ya.
I realize when I watch her sweet independence and uninhibited joy that she expresses what my insides won't allow. You know? I would love to put on my swimsuit and lay out a blanket and have a snack with my imaginary friends and favorite chickens. But I'm far too busy with grown-upping. And besides, you all would text each other about how I've finally gone and lost it for real and draw straws for who gets to run my intervention. But she gets to do it and I get to watch her and feel threads of the warmth of it all. One of the many perks of being a mama. Fact.
But now its freezing cold. The whole family is heat packing like champs now. One each for my tummy, back, neck, and feet. I don't drink tea but I drank five cups yesterday. But. I do so love fall, especially because of leg warmers. Did you know you can cut off sleeves of old tshirts and make them? Counting my refurb pairs, I've got 5 pairs now. Woot-woot!
Carole says that this is meant to be my season of Listening.
It seems like we are hoping for basic answers about things like faith and family and just plain our - my - space on this big spinning ball. I want to feel alive and excited and inspired, but I'm good with right now not being all that, and instead just settling down and paying attention.
She says we'll tackle the doing and dancing and getting after it later, and for now I should Listen.
Today there was an earthquake in Kansas. Facebook is blowing up about it. But I didn't notice any tremors because at that moment I was very busy screaming - for real screaming - at the eldest for not respecting me when I corrected her during her piano practice. Something to the tune of "I'm 35 years old and I have a college degree and I know how to count notes in a measure and I will not tolerate your bla bla bla bla bla." At which point the Buzz began also screaming "You're not 35, you're 29! Mooommmmm!! You said you're 29!!! 29!! Mommmmm!"
So the Listening. Its sporadic. But at least the effort is there, right? Fall is very much here and the quieting I feel is good. Mmmmm so good.
* The hands pic and the quote are from good old pinterest. Not my camera. I wish.